Okay so you asked me to write about the things that I am looking for in life and or from a relationship..
I don't know what the future holds for me any more than any other person but I guess I have some ideals of how I would like things to be or even how I would have wanted them to be before now.
the biggest thing that I know for sure is that I have no desire to be alone or to go through life alone.
I want to be with someone and share my life with them and all my ups and downs... I want to have someone to talk to and dream with and feel safe and loved. I want to know that they are not going to desert me when times get hard and that I am their one and only.
I do want to get married someday - but when I do I want to be sure that it is going to last - I never want to be divorced and I want to get married before I am too old to enjoy it.
I want to get out of the city and be settled in a quiet - good town and raise my kids with good values.
I want to explore creative venues - work smarter not necessarily harder and be with someone that feels the same and we support each other through these ventures.
I want to get the love I give back in return. I don't want to feel like the only one trying. I will never make them feel like the only one trying.
I want to stop over-extending myself and just do for my kids and my mate.
I want to still learn something new every day.
I want to try to laugh at some point every day.
I want to stop getting my heart broke.
I want to have a normal maybe even routine life. I guess I just want to know what is going to happen - stability makes unexpected disaster easier to deal with.
I want to cry less.
I want to be healthier. Quit smoking - eat right - ect.
I never want to go to bed angry or hurt feelings.
I never want to feel defeated when we disagree.
I want to know that the person that loves me - loves me unconditionally and that they won't give up on or walk away from me when times get hard cause really everyone has their ups and downs.
I want to be proud of myself and be able to be proud of my mate.
I want to always want to be close to the person I love even if I can't.
I want to be able to trust them when they are away from me and vice versa.
I want them to mean what they say and say what they mean and stick to it... I never want to be the last person to know.
I want to be happy. really & truly.
I want kisses before I say goodbye.
I want to be missed when I am gone and always welcomed back with open arms.
I want to be so loved that they feel the need to shout it from the rooftops or whatever equivalent lets it be known to the entire world.
I want them to wipe my tears when I cry and tell me it will all get better and at least we still got each other..
I want to know that we can work through anything.
I want them to never stop trying to make me fall in love with them even though they already have my whole heart.
I want to be able to compromise for real.... and stick to it.
I want to feel important and needed.
