Catching Up 2-4-12

It's been in my mind to write for several days at this point, but I have

been in so much pain and it seems to put me on edge ( I'm kind of a

cry-baby... ya I know hard to believe right? lol) Back pain sucks!!!!...

that will be all.
Okay lets get down to business and do some catching up. I had previously

spoke about the fact that we were trying to have my son to switch

instructors ( he's in second grade ). The principal decided to accept my

request [ not like he really had much of an option as I told him I would

take it to the Superintendent if he did not ]. I am quite pleased with my

son's new instructor. It pleases me to have some order and continuity in

my child's life, especially since I make great strides to do these things

at home. It's bittersweet in many ways him moving to this new class; I

found out that the previous teacher has him three units behind in English

and 5 units in Math!!!! It is an outrage! (((SHE SHOULD BE FIRED)))
I am happy that he will finally be getting the quality education that he

should have been getting all along - and sad that he was wrongfully put

at such a disadvantage.
I am ever so grateful for the mild winter season and the beauty of the

sunshine upon my face. It's helped level out my mood some and given me a

ton of time to reflect positively on missing my mother and not succumbing

to the blues of the season. I still grieve her every day, but finally at

least I have gotten to a place where I am not living it each moment to

the next over and over again.
Nothing will ever replace the gaping aching abyss that was spawned in the

mist of her departure from this Earth... but I am trying to revel in the

JOY of the now. ( catch me when I fall please )
My youngest son is doing great with his speech therapy and has perfected

the K sound finally! I am so very proud of him for working so hard!
We are gearing up for valentines day here and I am looking forward to

making a valentine box with my oldest son tomorrow! I remember quite

fondly doing this very project with my Mother! Oh some of the crazy

things that we created! She was excited much like I am and buzzing

through the house gathering craft items and then off to the store we

would go to get the final items! I am very excited to make messes

tomorrow morning with my children after our typical Sunday family

breakfast... I am blessed and I am so very grateful.
It's hard to get older and move forward sometimes. I remember a year or

two ago being in the car with my children and sun appeared after a quite

heavy rain and my oldest son, who I think was about 5 at the time, had

inhaled deeply and sighed an "ahhhhhhhhh" and then says " Mama can you

smell the rainbows?" ... What a crime sometimes to lose the innocence of

childhood... how I wish I could go back to the time where rainbows had a

distinct smell to me and I wasn't so consumed with life that I forgot to

take notice. How sad. Damnit!! I want to smell the rainbows! I want to

see Angels, I want to pick daisies, and float on my back in the ocean

until it feels like my legs disappear. What a crime that there are no

do-overs.
I am hoping to be able to take some pix of the valentine box creation

project tomorrow and post an update - yet we are also celebrating my sons

birthday tomorrow so it may be a busy day.